My Romeo

I am of 2 minds.
I looked at J one evening, I believe it was the evening he made me chips, and I felt the swelling of something as I took in his face, which I quickly quashed. Beginning of complications, I thought.
I really like his face. And that he is so so giving. And so selfless...
I am afraid I will hurt him, sometimes, being as unsettled as I am.
He says I don't send him as much text as I used to when he was in the bush. Which is true, and I haven't looked at why.
This morning my problem is that I haven't seen him all week. He works 6 days a week, and the day he will get off will not be a day in the weekend. When will I ever see him? When will we ever go for plays or movies? When will we ever go out dancing?
And if we had kids (yes, I know), when would he come for the functions or fun days or whatever?
I wanted a boyfriend to share life with, and life's moments with. I don't really have that right now. He's always working...work he loves, and I love that he loves it. But I don't have his time. Not through any fault of his.
I love that he makes me feel like a woman. A man who will buy  me lip gloss because I mentioned one day that I like a particular one. A man who went out and bought me a Kazuri necklace because I admired a bridesmaid's red jewellery. Who wants to know where the handbag I saw is...and I'm not telling him because I think it will be too expensive. Sigh.
What's bothering me now? I need to look at it.

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